Last blog of year 2004

Reports on the destructive tsunami in Indonesia caused so many deaths. Aren't we lucky to be situated in this small island protected by the bigger islands around us?

Failed 1 module. Sucks. And got a D for the paper I was most confident in. WTF!! I can't believe it!! Effort does not equal to Results! The more I study, the worse I did. Senseless! I went to review this stupid paper, but failed to get an improved grade. And this module I fail has no lessons in the next sem. Well, well. Sucks.

FYP FYP! Hate waking up early in the wee hours to go book equipment. Now in the midst of typing my progress report due on 5th Jan. Only about 40% through now.

On the lighter note, I bought my new handphone E600C at $308 without contract and line. Hehe, cos' my brother will be using my account to buy his N6230 as he can't wait till August 2005. My new phone looks so much nicer than the previous N6610. Yikes! NO more NOKIA!

Daddy has been wanting to buy me a watch since my birthday in July. Finally I got it on the day I got my new handphone. Balmain watch, nice one, bio-ing for sometime, bought it at $340. ^_^

I went to watch The Phantom of The Opera -- the movie yesterday at JP. GREAT man!!! I've been wanting to watch the musical years ago, and after Broadway closed down, hopes of watching it died. But now, they made it into a movie!! Of cos' I have to go catch it!! Broadway and musical lovers a MUST to watch it!! I'm so glad I got the CD recording too. Hehe.

Thinking whether to catch Sound of Music coming April and also Swan Lake in June. But I'm going for Hacken and Alan's concert in March, would I be spending too much money?? Sigh, but those are what I really wanna watch for a long time.

Countdown performance on 31st Dec! Have to play 2 quartet pieces and 3 ensemble pieces. Practising hard, with blistering fingers... Just do my best, ya? Talking about this 31st Dec performance, my bitchy SE president is irritating me again. Just hate her, I don't know why.

An insight into SE: We have 4 groups of players - Beginners, Intermediates, Advanced, Experienced. Currently there are no advanced players. The experienced group consists of the main ensemble, the first violins, second violins, violas and basses. The intermediates, forming the third violins, are joining the ensemble for the 31st Dec performance and also the Feb 05' concert.

So, this bitch and another guy, both from the Intermediate group, are joining the first violins for the 31st performance. YES, FIRST VIOLINS! I think she is out of her mind. The guy learnt violin before, and I think he is ok. But the bitch plays like shit. Just because she thinks she is the president she can put herself anywhere? Yesterday we had practised, and she REALLY can't play, cannot bow, obviously didn't practise at ALL! Not to mention she can't even manage her third violin part. Urgh, she'll only be spoiling the show. I hate her.

Time to sleep. FYP will still continue tomorrow at 8am. Shucks.

Choir Concert

I went for Dunman's 10th Anniversary Choir concert on Sunday at VCH. Well, it was really good. The standard was kept there and I think it improved! It was a pity I can't be part of the choir as I had so many commitments in NTU. But sitting at the circle seats watching was a new experience as I'm always the one on stage.

Met many old classmates, and all of them become prettier and more handsome. Met my JC Economics tutor (whom happened to be the ex-VP of Dunman), and I went to greet her. But she only asked, "How are you?" and left hastily. Has she forgotten me? Can't be, cos' I was the lousiest Econs student in class.

After the concert, I managed to grab Mr Toh (the choir conductor). I called out to him, and he turned around saying, "Hey, I remember you!" Phew, what a relieve. And managed to take a picture with him. I'm so happy. Haha.


I miss choir days...

Life Sux

Hi There to those who have missed me... How are you all doing? Been really busy with my work schedule and feeling so sian now that I'm blogging.

Exams were finally over. And the results are gonna be released in 2 days' time! I wonder how I will fair. I really hope to clear all my subjects this time cos' it's the first time I'm not worried about completing over 20-over tutorials before the exams. Hoping for the best. And also my Grade 6 Piano Theory exam. I completed it in 2 hours out of the 3-hour paper, and really hope to get a good grade for it. Before the exams, I was tuning in to Class 95's "Captain Of Your Heart" show. And was captured into Simon's show instantly probably because of his enticing voice and the love songs he played that brought many memories back to me. And on the night before my MS403 paper, he announced that he is leaving the station to do some background work. I sent him an SMS for the first and the last time wishing him all the best in the future and he read my SMS out. I felt quite emotional that night, and he signed off saying, "This is Simon Lim, Captain of Your Heart, signing off for the last time. Wishing you a very good night and sweet dreams for the very last time."

A Tribute To Simon:












I never tuned in to Class 95 from that night onwards, and changed to Symphony 92.4 instead. I participated in some of its SMS contests and won some freebies. Hehe. It included a $50 North Indian Restaurant voucher, $50 Visage Voucher, a Relaxing Moods 2 CD, and some radio premiums. Lucky me!


Guess what? Hacken and Alan are coming to Singapore again for their concert on 16th March 2005!! And I have bought the ticket already. I will be going together with Hacken Fan Club members. We will be sitting third row from the stage. So excited about it!!! Something big to look forward to!! Get your tickets HERE!

Met up with my Sec 1 and 2 Chinese language teacher 2 weeks ago. Had dinner with him together with Meihui. We got him some goodies as we expected him to treat us dinner. We ate at an Indonesian restaurant opposite Parco Bugis. He didn't change a bit, still looked the same as before. And he told us that his daughter is SAF's pilot earning like $13k per month! She holds a double degree (First class and first in standard in both) in a US University. My goodness! I can't believe my ears to hear that there such a competent woman in Singapore is his daughter! As usual, everyone will ask if I'm attached. So I told him I'm happy to be single, being able to enjoy freedom in everything I do. Besides I've got more than enough things to do besides having to be bothered with a boyfriend. He asked, "Really?" I guess I am so.

FYP FYP FYP! FYP SUCKS! And I have to take miserable GE during this semester break. Urgh. Progressing this holiday as my samples finally succeeded. Now I have to analyse and characterise them. Waking up at 630am (un-godly to me) and reaching the lab before 7am to queue outside for the XRD (X-Ray Diffraction) machine. Staying in hall do has it pros, haha! I was the first to reach the lab. Well, the pathetic school has only ONE such machine and there were only 4 slots for the undergraduates. Each slot is only 2 hours. I went to lab today, and they took away 1 slot, leaving us the pathetic FYP students only 3 slots. And why? The minority research students have 1 more slot now. What poor proportioning is this!?!? Really hope I have enough time to complete my FYP. Sigh.

Besides FYP and GE, I am also in the midst of intensive String Ensemble practises and rehearsals. We have an upcoming concert in Feb 05 and an invited guest performance in Jan 05 with NTU's Symphonic Band. There is also a 2005 countdown performance and a lunch-time performance in Feb 05. So many upcoming events. Hehe, but I'm enjoying it!

My family will be going to Taiwan for holiday. Sigh, and I can't join them. WHY? Cos I have GE exam!! Sucks rite?

Finally got Sims 2 installed in my PC at home. Can't play on my laptop though. Quite nice... Haha. Sims fan must get it!

Stressed Me

I am in my school computer facilities lab. Trying to do my PSPICE, but the software here cannot run my circuit!! ARGH! As a result, I am here blogging, trying to kill time before my 1230pm lecture.

It has been a long time since I've blogged. Been super busy with FYP, tutorials, music theory and sleeping. I have started early with my studying, even before the start of the recess. But, it seems that time is really not enough. Haiz. Exams are in 2 wks' time, and I haven't started on my 2 da-bao subjects.

FYP has come to a temporary stop, since the exams are so near. No results yet. All the work done before were useless. Sigh. Guess that the intersem will be super chamz. Somemore got GE - Malay I. Every Monday to Thur, 9-12pm and Thur is from 9-1pm. Somemore I've got SE intensive training. Think I gonna go mad during the holidays.

Went to Malaysia last Saturday for my paternal grandma's 80th birthday. We had a big lunch gathering at CinCin Restaurant at Kluang - the restaurant we always go for big feasts. However, the food that day was quite a disappointment. Nonetheless, the fun was there, with all the uncles, aunties, cousins... The birthday cake was very nice!! It's mocha taste, very very special, with the fresh cream and 2 "shou tao" as decorations. Never eaten such a cake!

Then I heard about my cousins getting attached. 1 of them hadn't graduated from College after so 2 years. Her younger sister is working in Raffles Hotel as a waitress now, living with her boyfriend in JB. And her younger brother is studying in KL, and gambles, smokes and drinks. I feel sad for my uncle. Being the sole bread-winner as a taxi-driver, he has to work very hard to bring them up. But his son doesn't know the toughness of earning money.

Then came a comment about the cousin working in Raffles Hotel. She has a diploma in Hotel Management from KL. My aunty and mother were unhappy that she went to apply for a waitress position. I was quite taken aback by it. Cos' I really think that there is nothing wrong being a waitress. At least she can earn much more in Singapore being a waitress than to work as a clerk in Malaysia. A waitress is a respectable job too right?

I remembered I wanted to be an air-stewardess when I was younger. However, my mother was saying it's actually a waitress job, just that it's different because you serve on a plane. She discriminate it so badly that I had to drop the idea. Sometimes, I wonder - Am I made out of my parents moulding? How I wish I have choices sometimes.

"your kisses are like pearls, so different and so rare. but anger stole the jewels and love has left you bare." This is a message I received from Singtel's internet SMS page. That person didn't leave a name. But I think I know who it is. Such a disgusting message will only come from a disgusting guy. Can't stand this kind of disgust. He's just trying to make me hate him even more when he tries to get into my good looks. This world just has too many disgusting guys.

More Quizzes I

You represent... desire.
You sure are motivated. You have a definite knack
for getting what you want. You always put your
own interests before those of others, and you
almost always find youself being satisfied.
Though you have determination, try some
compassion. Putting others first occassionally
can get you even more satisfying relationships.


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You're a Winter. You very much enjoy your time
alone but do like other people's company
sometimes. You just need your space. You have a
few priviledged friends who saw past your
colder exterior to find the true you. You can
have pretty bad mood swings (though you hate to
admit it) so you could be soft one second then
storming around the next! But over all, you're
a very pleasant person once people take the
time to get to know you. You're a good friend
for in-depth talks. You're very talanted when
it comes to creative things.


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Stressed

Stressed over FYP. Prof sent an email to all his FYP students today and I'm quite worried because I haven't really put in a lot of effort into it. Haven't been searching for journals, doing lit reviews and not independently-thinking enough. Sigh.

Hey Linus, all the best to your Thailand trip there. Hope you'll have an enriching trip. Awaiting your return!

Back to books.

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Your anime hair color is green.


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Graduating

Recess is over. Spent 5 days in school. No... 4 days actually. Went for a movie marathon on Thursday - The Cinderella Story, Rising Helen and The Terminal. And ate Long John's, 2 Cheesy Hotdogs (Yummy!!) and 2 packets of Super Rings for the marathon. Phew.

The Cinderella Story was really nice. As the title suggests, it's a typical Cinderella Story. But somewhat, I always get touched by sweet guys and their sweet actions towards the Princess.

The female lead in Rising Helen is sooooo pretty!! Haha, Pastor Dan is also very sweet to Helen in the show.

The Terminal... a different kind of storyline from what I expected. The story is kinda ridiculous because it won't happen in reality! How can one basically "live" inside the Terminal? However, the movie was quite nice.

In fact, wanted to go suntanning at the lakeside swimming pool. But it rained whole of Wednesday, and Thursday was cloudy and cold when I woke up. So we decided not to go. And before I left my hostel for movie at JP, it rained hard. What a weather.

Had a clearer view of what to do for FYP. Except that the lab technicians are very "ngiao" one. And chemicals are expensive. School is poor. Wonder where our tuition fees go to. Today Prof Miao said,"Wah! Cannot graduate already!" We were planning what else that has to be done, and realised that there is really A LOT to be done. Sigh.

My friend went to extract his 4 wisdom teeth at SGH yesterday. Went to see him today and his mouth is a bit swollen. I gave him a box of Campbell's instant soup in just he gets hungry. I still remember when I did mine. It just feels so good to get rid of the stupid wisdom teeth. Haha. Get well soon, CP!

Ready for school again. 47 more days to go.

Angel and Blogger Type

You're a "Yellow Angel" which means
you're probably really motherly. You're not
like a soccermom or anything but you're
protective of those you care for and you'd do
anything for them. You're usually the wiser one
in your group of friends and you're a good
psychiatrist because you've been through a lot
of stuff and know the best thing to do in every
situation. But you don't take any crud from
other people and they respect you for your
ability to stick up for yourself and others.

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Fun and spunky, you link, there for you are! This
is all fun and games, and you do what you
damned well please!
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Shacked

It was EEE investiture yesterday at Hall 15 Function hall. SE had a short performance there. I was one of the performers. This academic year, I have been "promoted" to the first violins. (Partly because the rest cannot make it.) We played Canon in D and Jesu Man's Joy of Desire. There was only 2 first violins, 2 second violins, 2 third violins, 1 viola and 2 cellos. So stressful! Cos' I'm not that good and have to play the first violin. Overall the performance was ok lar given the short notice time and practises. Gotta work harder on my violin now that I'm in the first violins section.

FYP sucks. Have been doing grinding and polishing of my samples all these while. Haiz, how to get a super mirror surface with cracks and pit holes?! URGH!!!

Anyway, was so bored in lab today grinding. Crosby came by, and we chatted quite a bit. We share the same supervisor - Miao. He's on conference for these 3 days, and he was quite sad he can't get him. So he came to look for me, cos' I told him I had some problems grinding my stupid samples. We chatted up and got to know that he spins music and is a part time DJ with Frontallabs. Yeah, kind of surprised. So I was like telling him that my ex is also a DJ. And he first-guessed correct who the guy was. So we were like,"erm, wat coincidence...". Hah, and I reminded him not to tell my ex that he is also from Materials Eng... save all the problems man!

Had a jog with my roomie just now. I improved... stopping after where I usually do. Hehe... and Chasel said I told Gary a lie that I went jogging! Haha... then my roomie was saying,"It's real!!"

Going for buffet at Royal Park Hotel tomorrow for FOC's celebration. It's free... cos' we have leftover money. Hehe... Good food!!!!

Vrooming on the highway...

Drove back home from IMM on Sat... HEHE!! Went along PIE...!! Reached 100km/h!! Today early morning drove my brother to school! Hehe... Went along ECP! But at the school, my father took over, think he felt uneasy for me to drive from Fort Road to NTU. Or else, I could have drove along AYE too! Haha!! So happy to drive!

CAC Dinner & Dance 2004

I didn't take photos during the last FOC, but managed to take many shoots on 21st Aug CAC DnD! Was quite unwilling to go in the first place, but in the end, was kind of persuaded to go.

It all started out on that morning where I had to go to school to meet my FYP prof at 11am. Duh... he wasn't in office, and when I called his hp, it rang inside the room! Hence, guessing he would be back shortly, I waiting for him at the lounge. He was back half an hour later. "Oh...! I forgot all about it! I have a last-minute meeting. Do you stay in campus? Can you come back later?"

So... I was back there at 1pm. After meeting him, I went back hall to bathe and pack. I didn't know why I was especially slow that day, I was in fact late in getting out from my room. Thus, I took a cab down to Paragon, being 15 min late for my 430pm makeover appointment at Hollywood Secrets with Jiehui.

The makeup took so long... We were there till 715pm!!! It was actually quite simple stuff like make-up and hair styling and photoshoots! But I guess they are just slow.

We were supposed to reach Crown Prince Hotel at 6pm, which is across the road of Paragon. We rushed there like mad after the photoshoots. Took the lift up, and we were almost the last few to arrive. Dinner has already started. We walked in embarassed, partly because we were late, and partly because of our dressing and make-up. We sat down at our table quickly. Hee. We were separated into two tables from our same gang of friends. But nonetheless, though less conversation, Adrian was sitting in the same table as me. HAHA.

SDU was there to organise the games. As the name suggested, yeah, very SDU-style. The government is concern of our partners ok! But our table was quite a spoil-sport. We didn't participate in the games. And when the Emcee, Lawrence Wong (acting in Durian King), called out for Table 17, we didn't even respond. How sad.

The dinner went on, together with the games, and Pagent and Man-Hunt. The dinner was served rushed-ly. Kind of gan chiong. But the Emcee managed to liven up the spirits and atmosphere of the dinner really well. A Jim-Carey look-alike. Very expression-ful. Haha.

After the whole thing ended, it was endless rounds of photo-taking. Baby was taking pictures of herself by herself. She just loved herself too much.

Went back to the hotel room, changed into something comfortable and went to Da Pai Tang for supper as the dinner was unfilling. The food was lousy compared to previous years.

Then we took turns to bathe, and everyone only got to sleep at nearly 4am. There were some complications in the middle as the hotel management came up knocking on our doors saying we were too noisy and there were complains. We were asked to leave, only 3 were allowed to stay. Tracy went to negotiate terms with them, and phew, they told us to clear our rooms before 8am. But clever Tracy put on the "Do-Not-Disturb" sign and they were unable to check on us at 8am.

Then it was going-home time. Reached home, shacked out, but didn't nap. Practised my piano, cooked dinner and wash my clothes. On my way back to hall that night, I concussed on the MRT.

What an eventful weekend. I didn't regret going for the DnD, Peishi!

I think I look the best this year. Heee....
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Another expensive present

I went to buy my new violin today at Wing Classic. My mum gave me budget of $1k. Hence, I got something $1k exact. I had a 8% discount cos' I mentioned Mr Chu's name (entitling to 5%) and going to their showroom (another 3%). I realised that many violin sellers actually brings some violins directly to your doorstep to sell. But little did I know that I could get much discount by going down myself! HAHA! He even gave me a free shoulder rest. All and all, I paid $920. Happy!! I like the sound, the bow and the violin case! Spur me to even practise harder!!

Nowadays, (on piano now), beside practising Beethoven's Moonlight Sonata 3rd movement, I'm now playing his Pathetique 1st movement. Going to get his style right... think I'm beginning to become mad like him. His pieces are very mad!! But very play-applicable when you're in a very lousy mood.

Alwyn has a new gf! Saw his friendster a few minutes ago. Actually it's easy to get attached, it's a matter of your choice of partners. Recently, I've just been intimidated by a guy from SE. Think I've been treating him very bad for the past few days. Haiz, I just treat him as a friend. Don't want him to think otherwise. Think being single has more pros. And I wanna choose the best. Don't wanna "wei le jie hun er jie hun".

I got my blue card with a lion head! Haha! Yeah, my driving license is ready and I collected it at the post office today. Hee. Suddenly I got the urge to earn lotsa money and buy myself a car.

FYP's getting tough. Haiz. My heart is not in school. My heart is with my piano at home, with my violin on top of my desk shelf, heart with career being a piano teacher. My parents want me to study in NIE after I grad to become a teacher. BUT I DON'T WANT! Sob!!

My Guardian Angel

I dreamt of Hacken Lee last night!! He came to Singapore for some Toyota Soluna (analogous Formula One) and his new CD publicity! And he came to my house!!! I wonder why the dream was so strange! Then I took out some of my CDs to let him autograph them! HAHA! It felt like he was some close family of mine. The feeling was warm. =P I was feeling so happy when I woke up in the early morning to meet my friends for lab practise.

School sux man! With lousy lecturers. Sigh. So much to study! ARGHH! It is already the 4th week in school!! So fast!!

Study study study!

What kind of kiss are you?

You have a dominant kiss- you take charge and make
sure your partner can feel it! Done artfully,
it can be very satisfactory if he/she is into
you playing the dominant role MEORW!


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Something I Finally HAVE!!

Oh yeah!! It was such a happy day! I finally got my driving license!! Woke up at 545am and was there for my warm-up session at 725am. As told by my previous instructors, I will get a newer car. Well, the touch of the car wasn't that good. But wasn't too bad either. So went to do the circuits for one time and went outside on the roads for a while. The warm-up session was so short! I thought it would be longer, but it was barely half an hour!

Stomach in a knot, hands shivering... That's what I always get before a test or exam - Nervousness. I hate this kind of feeling. Stomache will follow, and then will need to go toilet. Then followed by a full bladder. Shucks. Since young, I can never calm myself down.

So there I went into the waiting room. Balloted for my test route. 9!! A route I've only practised once!!! But lucky me, didn't kena 6 and 7 - the most difficult route of the 10 routes.

The tester came, called out my name, and I led him to the car. Did everything as per normal, adjusted the seat, mirrors, and put on the seat belt.... everything with a bit of nervousness. Then he asked me to turn left into the circuit even before he put on his seat belt. He felt my nervousness and told me not to be nervous. I attempted to turn left at a junction and he said," Go Straight! I didn't ask you to turn!!" I thought it was gone case already. Not following instructions constitutes an immediate failure!

I did ok on the slope! I didn't slide backwards! Everything seemed so fast, one after another. Parking was good! I got all the sighting points accurately. The tester was the "gan chiong" type. Kept asking me to go on even before I finished one part of the circuit. Maybe he wanted to see if I would react rashly to his instructions. But overall, he didn't have a happy face. His face was quite "black".

The road outside was good. Didn't have to do much lane-change. Good traffic too! Overtook a bus from the back into the filter lane to the left. Was really close to the bus rear. One car even gave way to me when I needed to lane-change to the right. Without realising, I was back at the driving center again, and followed the tester upstairs to the police department. We went into a room, sat down, and unexpectedly, he threw my IC back at me. I was shocked. It was so rude to throw! Humpf!! And didn't even debrief me on what and how I faired. Not even a word. Nonetheless, I thanked him out of politeness and went back to the office to close my account and get some paper work done. However, thinking back, I think he was very lenient with me. Oh ya, HAHA! I passed with 12 points. Demerit on speed too slow for traffic conditions, failure to use engine brake (which I think I did use everytime!!), inappropriate gear (due to tester's sudden change of instructions) and failure to position my vehicle properly (which I guess is while waiting for the right-turn). Sigh. I could have done better if not for my stupid nervousness.

Carried on to watch a video, then went back to pay for the driving license. Relieved. How not easy it is to get this card. And expensive. But I'm so glad it's over. When I was leaving the driving center, sadness overwhelms me. I am actually quite sad. It means no more driving lessons, no more meeting my instructors, no more taking bus 8 and changing buses to the center, no more walking past the security, no more paying 10 cents for the toilet, no more looking for my numbered car and no more driving Toyota Soluna.

Pri Sch Gathering

Went for my primary school gathering on Sat. Unbelievable that we're still having gatherings? Actually this is the second time already. This time there weren't many people. Only 8 of us.

So here's the update, Meihui... who couldn't join us... And some names for you to recall:

Who went: Stella, Pamela, Chu-er, Zhiwei, De Yao, Jeremy, Bernard and I. Joscelyn joined us much later.
Those who couldn't go: YOU, Sihui, Zixiang, Roderick, Alan, Jiawei, Huiyee, Peiyi, Joseph Tan, Joseph Yoong, Jason.
Those on the forgot-list: Yu Tian, Tan Wee, Bao Cui and Terence Chua.

Oh by the way! Ou Chun Kit is in NTU!!! ARGGHHH!! HAHA! I saw him last week!!

Joscelyn is now an air-stewardess, like Huiyee. Peiyi is undergoing training now. So many friends are air-stewardess. Ah hui, you missed out quite a lot of fun and updates. We went to eat at Rice Table, then went to Paulaner for drinks. Too bad we didn't take any photographs. Or else you would have seen their pretty and handsome faces. Zhiwei indeed has a gf now - an NIE grad. Bernard too, gf is an EDB scholar like him. Jeremy is still single, having flings once in a while. Pamela has grad, working as an accounts assistant now. Chu-er and Stella are in SIM.

Been quite busy with my stuff lately. Driving lessons, reading on FYP stuff, tutorials and music theory!! Sigh. I wished I had more time!

I saw Teck Wee in Canteen A today, Jiehui saw him first. Such suay-ness to see him. And even more suay to meet face to face in the library after lunch. I did try to smile, but he didn't respond. Maybe my smile was too vague and not obvious? Or maybe he didn't see cos' he is short-sighted? But I think the more probable answer is that he doesn't want to smile to me. =( Then the incident recollected in my head when we met on the MRT and so happened to sit beside each other, and he stood up and walked away from me. Sigh. Such a guy with no "du liang".

Alwyn stays near me again. From my window, I can see his room. Saw him in school on the first day of school last week. I'm so glad we are still friends. =)

Certificate

School is STARTING in 3 days!!!

ARGH!! School is starting this coming Monday! I'm not ready for school yet!! And once school starts, it's trips to library AGAIN! With notes to print, copy and buy. And textbooks to buy! And there will be ultra-crowded library and canteen and bookshops! Hate it man! Especially the freshies being super kiasu (like I once was)!! School is always overcrowded when school starts especially when a new year starts with all the blur sotong freshies bumming around. And before you know it, quizzes, projects, deadlines and EXAMS!!!! ARGHHH~~!!

 

I finally booked my driving practical test date - 11th August, 825am!! The warm-up session is at 725am!! My goodness! So early. And somemore bus-lanes will be activated! Plus the morning heavy traffic at Ubi area!! My goodness, I hope I will be lucky.

8030th day on Earth

The 22nd year on Earth! Happy Birthday Jessica! My FOC committee sang me a birthday song and a chocolate cake yesterday after FOC's BBQ.  Thank you ALL! ^_^ Hee... the cake was chosen by Adrian. Haha... First time I heard a guy chose cake and first time a guy chose a cake for me!!

 

FOC break camp yesterday night at Nanyang rooftop after a BBQ session. The whole camp wasn't that fantastic as the past 3 years'. This camp wasn't that fun and the people, especially the committee members weren't that enthusiastic as before. I only took less than 10 photographs during the camp. It was quite a pity that I didn't take more photos during SP Nite. Sigh. All the photos I took were group photos.

 

Besides that, I lost my voice on the second day of camp! Been feeling feverish even before the camp itself. But I guess the lack of rest during camp worsen my condition. Hence, my voice was totally lost on the third day. My friend bought "liang cha" with medicine added in, black colour and bitter on SP Nite. Eeks. But I finished the whole bottle. Quite touched by her concern. Thanks baby.

 

First year anniversary to my blog~!

One More!

Learnt vertical and parallel parking today! Haha. Not bad. Not as difficult as I thought. I think the most important in driving is to know the half-clutch position and able to maintain slow speed. Haha, I spent 1 full lesson doing the half-clutch the last time. I got the same instructor today again! Haha, sometimes, you just have to believe in fate. Hence, and hopefully, after the next driving lesson, I'll be able to book for my practical test date. ;)

FOC is starting coming Monday. Guess going to be shacked after that. Actually camp is nothing. But after camp is. Right after camp will be my friend's violin exam. 1 week without practise, I hope I can still make it perfect. Most important is not to hurt my hand.

And 1 week without driving lessons. Haha, hope won't lose the skills!

AND, 1 week without touching my music theory! Guess gonna get slaughtered by my teacher. And I'm quite anxious about the October exam. Roughly 3 months more only. Sigh.

Simple Yet Busy

Ok! Glad to say: I finally bought 2 pairs of slippers at one go! Finally I can walk out of my house with s-l-i-p-p-e-r-s!! Sounds pathetic. But have you ever thought of living without the simplest thing which are your slippers?

Lucky lucky me, I got the same driving instructor for the 4th time today! Haha, he even recognises me. But he's a really nice man - patient, kind, filled with smiles, and treats me sweets. Hope I get him tomorrow again!! If nothing goes wrong, I'll be able to book for my practical test after 3 more lessons. Hee. Tomorrow going to learn vertical parking. Think parking isn't easy.

Bugged by Prudential people again! They're really everywhere!!! And I can't seem to avoid them! Argh!!

Parcel

Wooo!! I got my parcel from HK today! Haha, it's from Hacken Lee International Fan Club. Yeah, the membership card and "uniform" came. Such a big envelop. It's a white windbreaker with fluorescent orange wordings reading "Hacken Lee International Fan Club". Eeks? Ya, quite, but I think it will look nice if it is worn during his concerts.

Daddy went to collect his new car today - Toyota Camry. I haven't taken a look yet cos' I was back very late. Will take a ride tomorrow morning to NTU, hee.

First Hacken Poster

My friend went to HK recently and bought me a Hacken's poster as my birthday present!!! I'm so happy!! I love it! It's the first poster of him I have! It is the picture similar to his latest CD - Smart I.D. Can you imagine such a loyal fan like me only own the first poster after so many years?? I'm so elated.

Well, the posting for FYP is out. I, got my first choice:

Description: PLGA and a-TCP are both biodegradable. When they are used alone, the mechanical and biological properties are not desirable. Composites of the two components, if combined properly, would show interesting properties. The objective of this project is to study the effect of the TCP content on the viscosity of the mixed slurry and the resultant coating quality.

Methodology: Produce a-TCP powder (or bioglass?). Dehydrate the powder. Dissolve PLGA in an organic solvent. Produce mixed slurry. Do dip coating on set or sintered CPC. Drying in vacuum. Hydrothermal treatment? Characterization.

Is it merely luck? Or that nobody chose this project such that I could get it so easily? NTU school stuff doesn't excite me anymore, cos' I have given up hope on the education system. Hence, any project I got doesn't really matter to me at all. Well, heaven may be on my side this time after a terrible IA period. It may be the time for me to "salty fish turned upside down" - meaning to climb out of the dark period.

I guess, I gotta go email my supervisor and ask for some advice first.

I bought a new piano book today. A very fantastic book! And most important of all, it contains the song I have been looking for for some time! Beethoven's Moonlight Sonata, full song. But it is an extremely difficult song to master. I give myself 1 year to master it. Hopefully I can make it. Gotta train my left hand, cos' the song needs a very agile left hand.

Busy Busy

Driving has been almost enjoyable till now. Much more confident on the roads now. Drove from Ubi to Tampines. Hee. Reaching 70km/h. Hee.

My cousin and grandma went back to Malaysia. Very happy that they were here to accompany me for a week. Haha. Went to catch Spiderman 2 on the first day of its run. It was full house at the PS cinema. Very very excellent show!! Must not miss it!! Waiting for Spiderman 3 now. Whahah!!

FOC is getting nearer. Preparations almost there. Sigh. Sian.

Practising on the piano accompaniment for my friend's violin exam. Better do well on my part, regardless of his performance. At least I won't be a cause if he ever failed! *cross fingers*

Kena a hall office email. Trying to get me out of my room. Crazy fellow. The new occupant obviously complained to the hall office. The story goes like this: Existing occupants can move in from 7th July onwards, if want to move earlier, will have to depend on the availability of keys. Well, 7th is a Wed. So I was thinking to move during the weekends, which is Sat and Sun. And it is already the earliest I can make it. So 12th, a Monday, is the earliest I can return my key. So what the hell is the girl complaining? Hence the email was asking for the reason why I am returning my keys so late. Crazy rite? I replied the email explaining my reasons, and there were no more emails. I won.

My piano student quit. Great. Lame. Sian. I expected it. But really quite angry, told me only today like 3 hours before the lesson. And said will post the salary to the agency. So I only made $60 for the month. Cos' agency gets 50% commission. Haiz. Not even enough to cover my transport fees. What the heck.

Can't stand my email inbox... urgh!! Kept getting virus mails.

Ok, time to cure my empty stomach. Grrr...

Senior Camp - Sentosa

OMG! Had my senior camp today at Sentosa. Just reached home like 12 plus midnight. My legs are ache-y. And my eyes are very heavy now. Woke up early this morning to reach Sentosa. Tho' I didn't do much there, but was draining man!

The weather was good today. Tho it rained so heavily in the east, Sentosa was surprisingly cool. Sun only peeped out behind the clouds in the late afternoon. I wore sports shoes there, and was suan-ed by some of my close frens.　"Wah, go jogging ar?" Shitty. So I had to explained.
1. No slippers at home
2. No sandals - they're in hall
Hence, what to wear?? Infutriating!

The programmers are more organised this year, with programmes lining up back-to-back, and minimum conflicts and problems. And again, I'm down to try the ghost walk this year. Tho' it always did me no scare, and they knew they can't scare me, but dunno why I always kena it. Sorry Jiehui, haha, really couldn't control myself to laugh at you being the medium along Dragon Trail. Opps. Heng it wasn't raining today or for the past few days. Last year I got sucked by a leech. It was so terribly painful! Hence, give rise to the 3rd reason why I wore sport shoes. *humpf*

The Female (NuYou) magazine had an event at Palawan Beach in the late afternoon. There were hunks and babes contest, free Corona beer, free tatoo, free buffet and goodie bag! Haha. It was quite well-organised. I had a tatoo done on my left arm. Haha. And really many hunks and babes to SEE there.

Ok, mind drifting off already. Really very tired now. Hope for the best for the actual camp!

Aiyoh!

My god! I forgot to do so many things today!! No wonder I could do my theory without any disturbs.

I forgot to call the caterers for my camp!! ARGH! Needed to confirm today but it just slipped my mind. *GRRR*

Cleaning room part 2 (final). They are coming on Sunday. Aiyoh, very busy ar.

Dumpling Festival

Ooo... had home-made chicken rice today! Cos' it's dumpling festival! Wah, always been my fave chicken rice man! We always eat chicken rice on big days cos' it is an offering to my ancestors. Especially with the specially-made "side dish" that goes together with the chicken meat. It originated from my maternal grandma with Hakka roots, and is made of Yan2 Xu1, Cong1 and fried shallots. It's heavenly. But I ate it at 1145pm! Cos' I reached home only then from my String Ensemble practise.

Cleaned and packed my stuff today. Can't stand the messiness in my room. Rearranged some stuff in my drawers and cupboard. But there are so many useless things that I can't bear to throw. Sigh. And there is limited storage space. So the spaces just get more and more packed each time. What the heck.

My grandma and cousin will be coming this weekend for a short stay. Hehe, very happy. Can get to see my cousin. Haha, will have to continue packing my room. Or else they won't have space to stay! Haha!

《叶子》

叶子 是不会飞翔的翅膀
翅膀 是落在天上的叶子
天堂 原来应该不是妄想
只是我早已经遗忘
当初怎么开始飞翔

孤单 是一个人的狂欢
狂欢 是一群人的孤单
爱情 原来的开始是陪伴
但我也渐渐地遗忘
当时是怎样有人陪伴

我一个人吃饭 旅行 (到处)走走停停
也一个人看书 弹琴 自己对话谈心
只是心又飘到了哪里
就连自己看也看不清
我想我不仅仅是失去你

Leaping

Went to give the third music lesson to my student today at Tanah Merah. The mother requested me to teach her daughter popular songs.

"Popular songs, meaning wat?" was the first thought that came into my mind.

"Get her some popular songs, play and see if she likes it or not. Then if she likes, then teach her. Don't force a song she doesn't like." Was what she roughly said.

Sigh. I once asked my student what she likes to play, she said anything. So I went to photocopy the songs from Winter Sonata - a Korean drama. Erm, she doesn't even watch the show and only have a slight impression of the songs. I mean, how to teach? Those are really very very popular songs amongst the teenagers.

Kind of disheartening, but I think I'm not a fault. The student is of Grade 1 standard and her mother expects me to teach her pop songs. Kind of impossible. No theory background, no technical knowledge, no foundation playing loh. Asking a baby to walk when he can't even crawl. Sigh. Think I have to try my best. Haha, if I succeed, I can come out with a book - The Shortcut to Piano Playing.

One thing I have to learn about life - Defending myself. Everytime when people reprimand me, I only accepted everything even though they were wrong. I was afraid to speak up for myself. Think this is something I should change. I shouldn't think about the other party too much. To survive, one has to be defensive, fake, hypocritical and filled with evil thoughts. The bad always prevails. Muahaha.

Starting to Sweat

Woo... today drove out of circuit liao! Out onto the main roads. Quite stressed at first, cos' more pressure on the public roads. And only the second lesson today, I have to handle such pressure! Haha! Btw, the instructor today was SO MUCH kinder and nicer. Yesterday's one was like sleepy and sian. Today's one very enthusiastic! Haha. And he was really nice to talk to!

Things starting to get confusing. The mirrors, direction signals, changing gears (up to 4th gear today!), pressing clutch, accelerating, braking, traffic lights, looking out for other cars....!!! Oh my god!! My brain getting haywire already!! Need more practise to familiarize with all the steps!!

My legs now achy and shaky. Haha. Got so much stopping today! Cos the car in front of me went so slowly. But overall really quite fun. Next lesson will be one week plus later from today. Cos' can't get a pratical date next week. Sigh. Will try to try on my dad's car. *evil grin*

Went for a Prudential recruitment talk today. Erm, not my williness lar, but due to some reasons. The speaker holds 5 degrees with 2 professions, and boasted that he makes more than $3k a day. Multi-millionaire. If not, I guess he's a billionaire. Duh. Everyone is so money-minded. Yah, they can make big bucks, but don't think they can brainwash me. Left halfway. Not really very interesting to me. Sorry lar. And quite lonely there. My friends (a couple) just treated me like invisible, and my baby who is a part-time staff there, talked to her colleagues more than me. So imagine how I was sitting there like a goondo. And those people who talked to me, so fake loh. Can't stand this kind of hypocrisy. Yucks.

Whee!

Today was the first ever driving lesson of my life. I was kind of excited about it. And was kind of fearful what instructor I would get, and whether I would do stupid stuff. But all turned out to be wonderfully good. Heh, the car didn't even stall once ok! *pat myself* Was really enjoyable driving, though only in the circuit today. Only drove up to gear 2. Looking forward to tomorrow's lesson already!!

Enough of slacking these 2 days. Haven't touched my music theory since Tuesday! Just because my teacher is going Genting next wk, I started to slack! Ok! Start tomorrow!!

AHHHH!!! Hacken's CD is released!!! Yeah!! Guess 2 more weeks, it will get to Singapore!! Can't wait to get my hands on it!!!

一生掛念你

懷抱裡昨日我未淡忘
你不必再說不愛我
忘記你事實我未在行
我不懂說句不愛你
愛過事後不可擁有
我卻自願再逗留

One more try 三番四次不捨得你
One more try 心聲再次交低給你
愛你愛你不必感到對不起
永遠愛你似一賭我運氣

唯有你夢內找到希冀
我不懂悔咎不嘆氣
唯有你像是清新空氣
我找到最愛的奧秘
情愛裡若是多出一個
某個定是要別離

One more try 三番四次不捨得你
One more try 心聲再次交低給你
愛你愛你不肯裝作記不起
我要對你說一生掛念你

其实...其实, 我只想让你知道
我永远都会这样掛念着你.

Oooo!! My New Asset!

Yeah man! Tat's the new discman I got today! Been looking around for a discman tat is able to play MP3 files. And finally I got it today! Hee, a birthday present for myself. Cost $168. Think the price quite reasonable. It comes with FM radio and it can play CRW/CDRW. Hee. Now I can listen to it when I'm on long journeys. And listen to my fave MP3s.

Uploaded some recent pics. There's a link below, but I guess you have to log in to see. Ok, going to be busy. With a lot of stuff coming up. Tom's my Final Theory Test. Hope I can make it this time round!

Campfire

Went for Dunman's LTC 2004 Campfire last night. It was held at MOE May Adventure Centre. Went back to see my juniors and Mr Bernard. Went back with 2 other seniors. Ok lar, haha. But I still think in my times, the standard was better. =P

Been figuring out how to scroll the text in the blog without the background moving together. Any idea how it can be done? I forgot the html command. And I can't find it in my book. Sigh.

Choir Performance

Dunman is having a 10th Anniversary Choir Concert this coming December. I was invited to go back and sing for the concert. The whole thing sounds pretty favourable. Practises on Saturdays, either once a week or twice a month depending on progress. And out of the 10 songs we are going to sing, only need to learn 1 new song. The 9 other songs were songs we sang before.

Well, there might not be another chance to stand on the stage anymore. And the most respectable person - my choir instructor, will be conducting. (Tho' he's very mean and once hurt me till I cried, think he's still considered respectable in the music arena. Haha.) Doesn't it sound all too good?

Time. Do I have the time to commit? With 7 modules + FYP + music exam + driving test, will I be able to cope? And I can't sing as well now, lost the skill already. Furthermore, all my choir good friends are not singing. Only those who seem to be close to me on the surface are participating. Ever since I joined the choir alumni, I've seen through how hypocritical they were. This means I'm going to be quite lonely during practises. And I once vowed never to go back. But... then again, I'm here pondering.

"We might not have this chance to stand on stage again in our life." This phrase keep repeating in my ears. This was how my friend persuaded me. Should I? Dunman taught me time management. Everything is possible, with good time management. Maybe I should take out my time management skills and put them to use again. I have been slacking for 3 years already. And for these 3 years, I have learnt almost nothing - in terms of academic and practical skills. Not comparable to my fruitful secondary school days. Sigh. What should I do?

Headache Again

Been busy these few days trying to finish my music theory. Lotsa books to read on and do.

My headache is still there. Do I have a brain tumour? An artery blocked? Am I dying? Urgh, I just hope it can go away. I can't do anything with my headache!! Is my health failing?

Just now a friend sms me asking me if my birthday is drawing near. Little did I realise it is June now already! I didn't realise till she asked me what I wanted. I guess, as one grows, the significance of birthday decreases. Compared to us when we were like 8 or 9 years old, we would look forward to our birthdays because it would mean a year older and bigger so as to make decisions. But right now, going on 22, I really hope I was 18 everyday. As one grows, we have to shoulder so much more responsiblities and worries. Worries about the future - work, money, family? Haiz. I don't wanna grow old so fast, I'm not prepared!!

What do I want for my birthday? Someone by my side. Don't want a next lonely birthday.

Headache.

Am I so good? Haha!

You Are Wanda! Yipee!


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KTV Again!!

Wah, went KTV today with some forum people. Hehe, this is the first forum outing I went, been rejecting them since last year. So finally met up with some of them today. (It's some, cos' not all the forum people went. Too many to count.)

Went to the KTV near Tanjong Pagar MRT. Can't remember the KTV name, but it's one of the outlets of PartyWorld. We sang from 2pm till 8pm! Haha. Was quite fun, everybody was friendly. *phew* This was the longest time I ever spent in KTV. Haha. Marathon man!

After so much singing, we walked to Maxwell Market for late dinner. Haha, they even wanted to continue singing!! But eventually we didn't. They went to Coffee Bean at Clark Quay and I went back. Needa get a book back from a friend, and my brother asked me to go home for majong session. Haha. BUT!! I got cheated. My younger brother didn't want to play. So here I am sitting in front of my laptop blogging. Urgh.

Very sleepy now. Going to turn in early. Tomorrow have to pia music theory again. Lesson on Monday.

Hey Yew Gie, all the best for your NS! Jia you wor! Meanwhile, I will look out for more gals for you. Haha.

Feeling....Hungry and Sleepy

Haha... Ok... Just put up the link for some soothing music. A friend suggested some classical music while reading is better... so here it is. Will go look for more soothing tunes. =)

Been playing majong these days. Lost $8 today. No luck. But think getting addicted to it. Shit.

On top of that, been doing my music theory all these days. Pia-ing for exam on 30th October 2004. So much to read on the history of instruments, orchestral and techniques. But very interesting.

Headache these few days. Worse when I start to think and do my work. Suspecting my glasses being overpowered. My glasses are quite new, just made them last September. And cost me $300. Didn't know my astig increased so fast and my short-sightedness decreased. Sigh. Maybe go back Malaysia and make another pair. Much more cheaper there. Hee.

Ok... time to sleep. Nearly 3am already!! My god! How time flies when I'm doing work.

Bugged

Can't stand those Prudential people standing in your way when you are rushing for time. Especially when they stop you in the middle of the road, blocking everyone's path. And there are all over Singapore, and I've always been bugged by them.

"Sorry, I'm not working." That is my standard reply. Next time when you go out and don't wanna get bugged, remember to dress casually, so that they won't mistaken you as a working adult.

Worst thing is one of my seniors is working as one of them and keeps calling me now and then bugging me to sign up for Savings Plan. I told him, "Hey, I'm not working, how do you expect me to save?"

"It's possible. Nothing is impossible. Come out and have lunch together?"

"Sorry, I'm not free. I'm outside. Talk another day."

Urgh. Can't stand it!

What Do You Truly Desire?

Love. You Truly Desire Love. You long for someone to hold you and take the pain away. You haven't been in much relationships or you need to work on how to handle them. You always seem lost in a daydream about the person you care about most.


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Monday Blues

Went to catch The Day After Tomorrow today. Didn't expect the show to be not-so-great. Expected it to be something more spectacular. And I've got a lot of question marks about the show. Maybe that's what they called the "Climate Shift". Wouldn't want to live in Ice Age, cos' I can't stand coldness. Think hotness is still more bearable than coldness.

Later in the afternoon went to Office of Finance to pay for my review of my papers. Saw 3 freshies and they asked me for directions to School of Business. Haha... I was in a rush to reach the stupid office before 4pm, and I think I didn't really explain well to them. Hah, cos they stood there in a daze. I was like saying "Oh, go straight, turn left and you'll see a big flight of stairs and go down."

"Erm, I can't see the stairs..."

"You have to turn left first..." I replied hastily.

Didn't really pay a lot attention to them cos' the damn office was closing in like 10 minutes time!

After paying, I went to look for my IA supervisor to get back my IA report. But he wasn't in. So suay. Instead met Prof Gan, my MS302 lecturer and tutor. What a disappointment he didn't even have the faintest impression of me, such a hardworking student for his subject. We smiled at each other.

"What are you doing here?"

"Oh, looking for Prof Park to get back my IA report. But he isn't in."

"How come you need to get back your report?" He answered, forever the nerdiness in him that makes him so cute and lovable. Muahaha. (Hey, he's young and smart, Associate Prof leh, has lotsa admirers... but I think he's married. All good guys are always taken!!)

"Erm, so that I can keep it." I just anyhow answered him.

"You having IA now?" Dionk! The more I confirmed he doesn't recognise me.

"Nope, I did it in Sem 1."

"Oh ok... see you then!"

*sobz* There goes my fave Prof. Not even an impression of this lousy student. Got D for his subject. *Guilty manz*

Went to get my Ribena at Canteen A. Hey... the western food stall is GONE! Guess what? The NTU students long-awaited McDonald's is FINALLY here!! Haha. Finally NTU has allowed a fast food restaurant to come in! Guess there'll be a BIGGER crowd at Canteen A. =(

Met Yen Teik and his gf at Canteen A. Haha... he asked me to visit his new home at Bishan. So fast, he and his gf have graduated. Still remembered we knew each other in Yr 1 back in 2001. Haiz. How time flies and how I've aged. Haha.

A misty road. A cloudy sky. A bleak future. Help.

Eatery

Went to Ping3 Xiang1 Yuan2 to eat just now. Nice dim sum there and "zhu chao". We ordered Hor Fun, Sheng Mian, E-fu Min, Fried Rice, and some dim sum. The zhu chao is $4 each, standard size, and the standard dim sum is $2.30. A bit expensive for the dim sum though. They even gave us 3 egg tarts above $10 spent as they are having their promotions. The food is better than the much more talk-about Xing4 Fu2 Lou2 at Toa Payoh. Somemore no need to queue.

So where is Ping3 Xiang1 Yuan2? Haha... it's at Lorong 27 Geylang. At the corner of the road. Think it's definitely worth a try!

D-Day

Finally the results were out. Super disappointed with it. *sobz* Failed 2 miserable subjects. The worst I was expecting. Thought I would only fail 1 at most. *wheah*

Sent out my appeal to review my papers. That cost me $21. Hope I get something good back. *sigh*

Who can I blame? The lecturer? Yeah, they did sucked but eventually I think it's myself. My friends didn't do well either. Those smarties didn't fair well. Think the paper really too difficult. *sulks*

Next sem will be super xiong for me. Can't take my level 2 Japanese. I have waited for almost 2 years. But just kept failing my subjects that I can't do Jap in the sem. Have to wait for inter-sem, but don't think they will offer this subject. Stupid school.

HUMPF. Now have to crack my small head on what to choose for FYP. Urgh.

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Attitude

My Dunman junior borrowed my LTC Instructors' tee-shirt from me...... thru sms. It's not about the sms that I don't like. It's the attitude that she gave! Not even a greeting, and it was kind of a demanding tone that she wanted the tee from me. And I have to pass it to another person myself. I hate it. I lent it to her on the account that she is also a Dunmanite. Or else, forget it man! What a terrible character she has got!

Still remember what she did 2 years ago. All of us were back helping Dunman with Leadership Training Camp (LTC). Due to each other's busy work schedule, it could be seen that commitment level from each individual has dropped over the years. But everyone still got their work done. And this ignorant gal typed a long complain letter immediately after breaking camp stating each and everyone's mistakes for the camp preparations and during the camp. And she sent it to all the seniors and our Camp Commandant which is the school's Discipline Master. She is the most junior of all of us, and she had the courage to do it! So, as you would expect, emails starting shooting here and there and fire and war broke out. Then the DM shot one lethal email that stopped the war.

From then onwards, all of us seniors vowed not to go back anymore. We knew we put the DM in a difficult position. But all of us were very determined not to hold on any longer. Hence, the end of our reign. Haha.

Haiz, that email caused our relationships to strain and it never healed for these 2 years. Some people, just needed more time to learn. One cannot just use force to control, sometimes, inter-personal relationships are more important. Especially in this society, we need each other to survive.

Tommorrow is D-Day. Think I will be super disappointed if I fail any subjects. Though I mentally prepared for one already. Sigh. Hope my efforts can prove me wrong. Really don't wish to fail any!!! *prays very very hard*

Van Helsing

Argh, pain in my gum!! Been wondering why it has been hurting these few days! It's the area in my lower left jaw where my wisdom teeth used to be. I'm so afraid the dentist didn't remove the whole wisdom teeth the last time. Wheah! Don't wanna go to the dentist again!! It's the same kind of sore feeling I had when the wisdom teeth was growing out. Really hope it's just "heatiness", not the remnants of my wisdom teeth. *very pain*

Went to catch Van Helsing in the late morning today finally with my mum!! Had wanted to watch this quite some time ago. It was a really great show! But it was a pity Anna had to die! I was expecting a happy ending with Van Helsing. To think that she fought so hard for her life against the vampires and in the end, killed by a third party. Sigh.

Had violin class today. Chao Chao passed me the piano score. He wanted me to play accompaniment for him for his violin practical exam. Wah, think I will be more gan chiong than him man! He has about a month plus more to exam, which means I got the same amount of time! Gotta practise hard, else will cause him to perform badly. Haha, to think that I actually agreed to it, cos' I think it's a kind of experience I should have. Well, think I should be able to make it. I used to be the pianist for my sec sch choir, so this shouldn't be a problem I hope. *crosses fingers*

Oh, changed the new outlook for my blog. Got quite sick of the blue background. Going back to black one. Still think the black one is more evergreen.

A friend has been trying to get back my friendship lately. Sigh, what can I say? Things that already happened will never disappear. I did try to accept the friendship again, but things will never be the same again. There will always be a gap between us. Hope time can prove me wrong. As Meihui has told me some many years ago, "One can forgive, but never forgets."

Yeah!!

Ooo... called up my music student's mum in the afternoon. Haha... her son also wanna learn music from me. Hee... means more income. Somemore it's a 11-year old kid. Haha... I'm so happy!

I also called up my new music teacher. Will be starting the first lesson with her this coming Thursday. Yeah, another step towards my dream.

Went to take the Trial Final Theory Test today. Hee, finally booked my FTT again. (Yeah, AGAIN, cos' I took it once before.) Hope I can pass it this time!

KTV

Went KTV with Yang Chuang and gang 2 days ago. Yeah, the same gang I always go KTV with. But this time round, we got a "star" with us. Haha. 2003 NTU Talentime runner-up - Zhang Le Sheng! In case you don't know who is he, he sings the cha qu for Xi Ling Men showing on Channel 8 at 7pm. Earlier on, if you happen to be a UFM100.3 listener, he is the guy who sang Xin Yang.

He is just like any normal guy, humble and nice. He only sang a few songs during the KTV session and when he sang, my heart melted! Haha! We took a photograph together. When I get the photo, I will post it here. Hee.

Then we went to have dinner at Kopitiam where he treated us drinks. Haa. We teased a gal with him saying she is his new fan. Haha. And how honoured it was to have him buy the drinks for everyone and took photo together.

After which, we went shopping at HMV and then sat down and talked at Spinelli. Time flew by very fast and was time to go home. They went to watch Shrek 2 at Cineleisure and Le Sheng went off to meet his friend. Though I really wanted to join them for the midnight movie, but guess I better go home. Else, will kena scolding from my parents. Haiz, how come girls can't stay out late?

Yesterday, my brother went to donate blood. I was struggling to go or not to go. In the end, I didn't. I guess I was too freaked out by the big needle. Erm, next time k?

There will be a countdown session with Hacken Lee at KL end of the year. My mum said I have already met him once and not to waste money when I ain't earning. Trying to persuade my parents to let me go...

Results are coming out this Thur late afternoon. I pray for the best. If not, I just have to accept it and retake. Sigh.

Feeling

Nothing, just feel like writing something. Late in the night and always lotsa thoughts. Sitting in my dining room, with the fan blowing into my face, with my parents snoring upstairs, so many thoughts.

Friends... come and go. Relationships come and go. I wonder if this lonliness will stick with me for how long. Haiz, but sometimes having the freedom to do whatever I want is pretty good. But when there's no one to care for me and no one to talk to me when I needed somebody is pathetic. Where have my good friends gone to? Or did I ever had good close friends? Ya, I had. But we lost the "closeness" after we went different schools. And busy school life results in loss of many good friends. Sigh, I missed talking on the phone with my ex. Though he wasn't a good bf, but I think at least the phone calls could cover up his bad points.

Haiz. Life ah life... think it's still good now. Should treasure it.

Holy?

I went to TM and Century Square today. Saw my used-to-be very close fren doing temp job there. So went over and talked to him. So I was suggesting a gathering session for my sec's sch Council group. So I was like asking if he will be free next Thur after 6pm since he's working.

"No... There's no work............................"

"Oh GREAT!" That was in my mind. But he added, ".....but I got church."

The thousand hopes smashed immediately. Somehow I know I could never win over somebody over church sessions. "Oh..." I gave a very short and bored reply. One could take time-off from work to just go church.

Sigh. Not birds of a feather flock together. Only this particular church go-ers are, too, no, should be EXTREMELY, enthusiastic. This friend used to be a devoted Buddhist. And after so many years, he converted to Christian this year, saying it gave him guidance and light towards life. When he told me this, I knew we will never be the same again. I "lost" many friends to the great Jesus.

So many friends tried preaching me, threatening our friendships and one of them even hung up the phone on me after I rejected her. Was it because of Christianity that we were friends or because we were really friends?

I believe one should have his/her own freedom to choosing their religion. They shouldn't be forced into it. My friends kept asking "WHY WHY WHY? Why don't you want to be a Christian?"

Erm, I think this kind of thing should be based on one's belief? I have no feelings towards Christianity. They said I haven't even tried, how would I know? Rubbish, I've been to churches, masses, Easter day performances and a catholic school for many times. And I feel nothing. Just had a thought that they were all obsessed people.

*Disclaimer: I do not oppose Christianity.

Progress Report

Hee hee... The comments link is finally up!! Now trying to put a line across every entry so that it's easier to differentiate between the entries. Getting late, and hungry. And the weather is so hot! Can melt man!

Any comments, please feel free to drop a comment. Can be anything on my blog or me. Just anything. =)

My Hair

Yucks... my hair is ugly. The more I look at it, the more I think the cut is really lousy. Looks just like being bitten by the dog.

My blog is ready. Haha... realised the midis were not working and found out that it was wrongly linked. And solved some mysteries here and there. Now trying to figure out a way to put a "comments" link to the blog.

Blog is UP and On It's Way!

Hee! Went to dye my hair at Jean Yip yesterday afternoon. I quite alright with the colour but not the cut! I think they dunno how to cut hair. Been there so many times, and they always disappoint me in the cut. Now I hope my hair grows faster, or else I'll walk around with popping hair. Urgh.

Haven't been out all these while since the exams. Been going to banks and settling all the unsettled matters. Still got a few to settle. How come the holidays seem so busy?! Wait till string ensemble practises and FOC meetings resume, I'll be super busy again! ARGH.

How's the blog by the way? Haha. The background and midis are up. What a hassle and headache to go through html line by line. More are to come. Just give me some patience. Haha.

Back From Old Blog

Holidays are finally here again!! Ever since from IA last semester, there wasn't a proper holiday for me. Exams finished juz yesterday afternoon, and I felt so happy! A much awaited day finally arrived. Sigh, but I don't dare to think how my results will fair. I'm again afraid of the word "da bao". As long as I pass, I'm happy already. I didn't ask for too much, right?

My laptop spoilt. The screen could not display anything but a white bright screen. So after my paper, I took a cab home (I'm too spoilt liao), took the warranty card out, and went with my mother to Kallang Sector. It was quite inaccessible there. We took a cab from Kallang MRT. My laptop have to be "retained" there for 3-7 days for diagnosis and repair. Sigh. After we walked out of the building, it was Infineon! The company Jiehui is working at! So I called her and asked if there was bus out. There was 2 bus stops, and we juz hopped onto the oncoming bus without considering which direction to go cos' the man at the service center said it is a loop service. Little did we know, the bus took such a long time to reach the terminal station! But we wanted to go to Aljunied MRT!! One wrong step - torturous journey!!! In the end, we took bus 21 from the "bird-doesn't-lay-eggs" bus terminal station back to Aljunied MRT! WHAT A WASTE OF TIME AND MY YOUTH!

A few hours being couch-potato in the living room, enjoying the luxury of life - no stress, no work. HAHA! And now, in front of the PC typing my blog and listening to 933. Life ah life, IS SO GOOD now! Hee.