Stressed Me

I am in my school computer facilities lab. Trying to do my PSPICE, but the software here cannot run my circuit!! ARGH! As a result, I am here blogging, trying to kill time before my 1230pm lecture.

It has been a long time since I've blogged. Been super busy with FYP, tutorials, music theory and sleeping. I have started early with my studying, even before the start of the recess. But, it seems that time is really not enough. Haiz. Exams are in 2 wks' time, and I haven't started on my 2 da-bao subjects.

FYP has come to a temporary stop, since the exams are so near. No results yet. All the work done before were useless. Sigh. Guess that the intersem will be super chamz. Somemore got GE - Malay I. Every Monday to Thur, 9-12pm and Thur is from 9-1pm. Somemore I've got SE intensive training. Think I gonna go mad during the holidays.

Went to Malaysia last Saturday for my paternal grandma's 80th birthday. We had a big lunch gathering at CinCin Restaurant at Kluang - the restaurant we always go for big feasts. However, the food that day was quite a disappointment. Nonetheless, the fun was there, with all the uncles, aunties, cousins... The birthday cake was very nice!! It's mocha taste, very very special, with the fresh cream and 2 "shou tao" as decorations. Never eaten such a cake!

Then I heard about my cousins getting attached. 1 of them hadn't graduated from College after so 2 years. Her younger sister is working in Raffles Hotel as a waitress now, living with her boyfriend in JB. And her younger brother is studying in KL, and gambles, smokes and drinks. I feel sad for my uncle. Being the sole bread-winner as a taxi-driver, he has to work very hard to bring them up. But his son doesn't know the toughness of earning money.

Then came a comment about the cousin working in Raffles Hotel. She has a diploma in Hotel Management from KL. My aunty and mother were unhappy that she went to apply for a waitress position. I was quite taken aback by it. Cos' I really think that there is nothing wrong being a waitress. At least she can earn much more in Singapore being a waitress than to work as a clerk in Malaysia. A waitress is a respectable job too right?

I remembered I wanted to be an air-stewardess when I was younger. However, my mother was saying it's actually a waitress job, just that it's different because you serve on a plane. She discriminate it so badly that I had to drop the idea. Sometimes, I wonder - Am I made out of my parents moulding? How I wish I have choices sometimes.

"your kisses are like pearls, so different and so rare. but anger stole the jewels and love has left you bare." This is a message I received from Singtel's internet SMS page. That person didn't leave a name. But I think I know who it is. Such a disgusting message will only come from a disgusting guy. Can't stand this kind of disgust. He's just trying to make me hate him even more when he tries to get into my good looks. This world just has too many disgusting guys.